To go, or not?

Thought about it when ryan came chatting to me at like what, 5am in the morning? He's willing to give it up just because of 1 thing that means so much to him. hmm and I'm not really sure if I am prepared to put down everything for 6 months. 6 months is really long and I've yet to discuss with dad yet. 6 weeks and 6 months, its a freaking huge difference. I'll probably come back looking like a ball but thats not the point. Guess I have to make a decision soon.